when I'm falling in love

when I'm falling in love , somebody told me "you still 16 and you don't really need a boyfriend" , but another say "it's cushy to have a boyfriend, you have to feel it"

I'm 16 but I need it , I'm teenager not a little girl , I want to , but I'm afraid 

those are what I'm feeling right now . yes , I'm dreaming of you , yes , I'm happy when I see you , yes , I'm sad when it's Sunday and I can't see you , yes , I love you , yes , I want you to be with me , but I'M AFRAID that there will be something waiting to hurt me . 

so, please , mom , stop forbid me when I'm getting braver . please , friend , stop push me when I'm afraid .

it's disgusting to have a feeling like that . it's killing me slowly . GOD , please help me , show me how to face this , show him that I love him . aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa------